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Sacrifice
SacrificeIt’s what needs to be doneThere’s a life I wantI see itIt’s possibleAnything isI just have to be willing to sacrifice a lotI want to
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My Art
The poems come to me at four in the morningThey don’t require much thoughtI let my fingers lead meAnd they go nutsIn seconds I’ll have a written poemA mended heart and excitement over what I’ve jotted downI can’t believe that this is my art Angelica Flores
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Take Responsibility
I have to take responsibility for my actionsIf I’m still suffering and hurt after I’m no longer in the presence of the people that hurt me, then it’s my responsibility to do something about the way that I feelThey can’t always be the villains in my current storyIf my story is the same after leaving […]
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You Have To Feel The Sadness
You have to feel the sadness. When it comes, pay attention to it. Make time for it. Sit with it no matter how much you want to avoid it. Don’t reach for your phone. Don’t reach for a book to read. Don’t even write. Just feel it. Cry. Scream. Sob as hard as you can. […]
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You’re NOT FINE!
My rage put its long ugly fingers around my neck and squeezed. It commanded that I scream and cry. My heart started racing and I almost blacked out. My rage let go of me just in time. It laughed in my face and told me I was lying to myself. “You’re not fine!” it taunted. […]
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God Said…BUT I DIDN’T WANT TO LISTEN
I’m not feeling too well so I decided to stay home today. I’m announcing this because you may see a few posts since I have the time to write. I wanted to share something that happened to me. I met a person that I clicked with. After a few phone calls and a bit of […]
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Body Body
Body body I hear you, but I won’t do anything for you We don’t feel well What would it take for me to care? Angelica
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Life Has Shown Me
I wrote this a year ago. There is so much that has changed. I realized that I am not alone and that thinking I can’t depend on anyone is a trauma response. I have learned so much. Maybe things will changeThey might get better but I won’t count on itI need to prepare to face […]
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Treat Yourself Like Royalty
How many times did I feel the need to scream and I still wasn’t heardIn instances like that, when you’re surrounded by people who only want to misunderstand youThat is your cue to move it alongStart dismantling your life piece by piece and rebuild a safer space for yourself if you canTreat yourself like royalty […]
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I Can See It Now
I can now see why things have happened the way they haveGod knew what I needed and made it happenI had no idea where any of this would leadI’d just cry and cry and ask whyBut I can see God’s first paint strokes of a painting he has titled My LifeAs in mineI don’t know […]
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From Isolation To Community
I keep being reminded that this life doesn’t last too long and while I’m thinking about what I can buy to make a home, I’m forgetting to look up and enjoy the company in my lifeI am loved but I’m so used to doing things on my own that it’s hard to invite people into […]
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This Anger is Valid But…
I’m in my feelings today. That’s why I’m posting a few poems today instead of just one. I want all of you to know how I’m feeling. I just wrote this one about the anger I’m carrying. All this anger is valid as hell but how do I stop it from ruining my life?I don’t […]
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I Prefer Silence to Address This
So what if I want to express myself the way that I doYou gave me options and then decided what I needed to doUsed guilt and judgement to puppet me around for your conveniencePreached about boundaries and couldn’t take it when I tried placing themYou could easily mold me and I was too afraid to […]
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What Healing Through Self-Seduction and Burlesque Did for Me
I glowed from head to toeDoors would open for meSmiles would come from every directionI asked for what I wanted and got itI could feel everythingI laughedI welcomed the cryingI welcomed communityI danced my way around my apartmentI observed my naked bodyI realized I love my eyesI indulged in pleasureI slowed downI saw myselfI used […]
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Silence
Silence is my teacher Silence loves me Silence protects me Silence gives me clarity Silence guides me Silence allows me to know myself better Silence connects me with God Angelica
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I Keep Dreaming About Someone I Loved
I keep dreaming about someone I loved. I loved him deeply. I have had dreams about him for ten years now. TEN! I know these dreams have more to do with me than with him except I don’t know what he represents for me. My ex-therapist said that I need to write my dreams down […]
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Logic or Emotion?
I put two and two together and my logic tells me to calm down but my emotions pour out and there’s no stopping themIs it true that good decisions are made when one is calm?It is true that not all emotions need to be acted on?Is it safe to say that there needs to be […]
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Something Clicked
SomethingSomething clickedI can see what I’m wasting my time onI can see how much energy I’m giving awayI never get it back and this is why I feel this wayThis morning, I looked around my room and noticed things I’ve never paid attention toDetailsDetailsSomethingSomething clickedOnly I know what goes on in my heartAnd GodOnly God […]
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I Won’t Beg
I won’t beg for attentionI won’t beg for loveGive me what you want to give meI will decide if it’s enough Angelica
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To Be Broke Or NOT To Be Broke
Why God? Why didn’t you make me a rich bish? lol Since I wasn’t chosen, here is a poem about my current dilemma. I have no control because I refuse to feelI’ve switched from emotional eating to purchasing things I need and want and I cannot afford this chaos that I’m creating all because I […]