2020 Reflections

This year has been eye-opening. It has been filled with trauma, stress, fear, but also love, gratitude, and healing. I have constant conversations and there seems to be a common experience many of us have had. I like to call it THE grand shift.

At the beginning of THE grand shift (in March) no one really knew what to make of the pandemic or how to survive it. People were losing their jobs, businesses were closing, schools were shutting down, etc.

At the same time, everything that I knew had been in question. Apparently, many of us CAN work from home. Many friendships that I had at the beginning of the year no longer exist. Social norms were broken, and the world was asking…no demanding change.

Witnessing the conversations around race, centering Black Lives Matter (because black lives do matter) and watching many of the world’s population become infected with Covid-19 while our government stood by and intentionally refused to protect the American people really unveiled to the world the racism and oppression that has always existed.

The different events of this year were the tip of the iceberg and it has brought to the front and center a conversation on how we as a society need to move forward. Part of moving forward is addressing institutional and systemic racism.

At the same time, THE grand shift was not only happening on a national level but also on a personal level. I realized that I had been living my life in ways that were detrimental to my authentic self. I kept family and friends close only because of the hxstory I had with them, not because they were good for me.

I had been distracted by what capitalism had to offer and when all of that was taken away (shopping centers, movie theaters, restaurants, hair salons, bars etc.) I was left with just me, myself, and I.

I only had myself to be with, alone with no distractions. It was just me, my mind, and an ability to see the bigger picture of how I lived my life.

It was only then that I realized how I was living and what I needed to change and now, despite the challenges that present itself because of the pandemic, I am committed to make decisions that will lead me to living a life that I want. I will no longer compromise at the expense of my true authentic self, even under a pandemic.

Thank you for following my blog. I sincerely appreciate every single one of you.

Angelica Flores

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