My Body Does Not Let Me


I’ve been posting a lot and I hope you’re not too tired of me. I am currently crying. I am not ashamed of it and I don’t ever plan on hiding when I am not feeling well. Some days are good days and some days are not.

I am thinking about my family. I don’t have a good relationship with them and I never fit in but I still hope they are safe. I think about my grandpa every day. He is not in good health and we are not on good terms. There is a lot of hurt and anger and although my family does not realize it, there was also a lot of verbal abuse. I don’t know how to navigate this. I want to talk to him over the phone in case he passes but I am not ready to talk to him. My body does not let me.

I am not looking for a solution or recommendations. I am just making space for myself in this blog and with you. These emotions are raw and I am sharing them with you. It feels liberating to share my feelings and to share my story.

Thank you for sticking by me. I appreciate every single one of you.


2 responses to “My Body Does Not Let Me”

  1. Glad you know yourself so well. Many times women are taught to ignore their own limits. Happy for you that you know what they are and respect them. I am relearning that now for myself.

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  2. I appreciate your support. I think it’s easy to think that folks will say thing like “forgive and forget” or “you only have one life” and although those are true, it’s a process. When I read your comment last night I said to myself “You know what? Hell yeah, I know my own limits and boundaries and I AM respecting myself.” I didn’t even think about that.


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