I’ve been posting a lot and I hope you’re not too tired of me. I am currently crying. I am not ashamed of it and I don’t ever plan on hiding when I am not feeling well. Some days are good days and some days are not.
I am thinking about my family. I don’t have a good relationship with them and I never fit in but I still hope they are safe. I think about my grandpa every day. He is not in good health and we are not on good terms. There is a lot of hurt and anger and although my family does not realize it, there was also a lot of verbal abuse. I don’t know how to navigate this. I want to talk to him over the phone in case he passes but I am not ready to talk to him. My body does not let me.
I am not looking for a solution or recommendations. I am just making space for myself in this blog and with you. These emotions are raw and I am sharing them with you. It feels liberating to share my feelings and to share my story.
Thank you for sticking by me. I appreciate every single one of you.