I cried today 

I’m mourning my bad habits

It’s all I’ve known

My body is confused and doesn’t want to acknowledge that parts of me have healed

So I will cry

I will mourn my bad habits

And after the tears are released

I will love my myself and my body 

Because I deserve it

And I demand it

Even if I cry

Even if parts of me wants to go back to who I used to be

That is not possible

I love myself too much

Angelica Flores