The mirror doesn’t lie. I created this visual because it’s time to really look at myself and address the things that are causing me the most pain.

My poems help me pinpoint what I am feeling and that’s a great start, but I would like to do more.

I don’t know if I am ready but ready or not, it needs to be done.

I also don’t know exactly what I will see, but I wanted to tell someone (you) that I am really scared!

How do I start? I am thinking of setting time aside in the morning and at night. I am going to sit with myself in silence first and then I am going to journal about what I feel, what consumes my thoughts, what brings me joy, and what makes me cry.

There is going to be a lot that comes up that I am not going to like about myself. There will be guilt. There will be sadness. I don’t want to view these emotions as negative because my emotions are there for a reason. The key is to figure out why.

When I figure out why, I am not sure what my next step will be, but I guess I don’t have to worry about that now.

I can do this. I am sharing this with you because I feel like you won’t judge me. I am also sharing this for accountability purposes.

Wish me luck. If I don’t post soon, it means I’m a wreck but that’s okay. I’m just glad that I’m telling someone.

Angelica Flores