Between fight, flight, or freeze, I am currently frozen. I’ve tried the other two and it has gotten me to safety. I am finally safe but I haven’t convinced my body that it’s okay.

I’m still living with the what if mentality
I can’t make a decision because things change
I’m afraid to be a permanent mark on the concrete I walk on
I know it’s because I’ve been on survival mode
But I can call this place home if I want it to be
Home can be anywhere
I just need to decide that it’s mine
I just need to stop looking for it as if it exists only in the future
I need to start looking around and convince myself that I’m worthy

Angelica Flores