Step Away

I didn't even get a chance to show him how much he meant to meI fantasized about himI loved how much we laughedI smiled every time we listened to music togetherI told him what I don't tell othersAnd he said so himself, that he never talks about the deep shit with no one elseAnd we [...]

Rest

Resting is different than being stagnantI don't know if my body knows the differenceIt was never allowed to restAnd that became the way I navigated successOne day on a bed was considered lazinessAnd my nervous system would go into a state of frenzyBut not working does not equal lazyDoes not equal good for nothingDoes not [...]

Pedestal

I put you on a pedestalYou gave me the basics but because I've never had it before, I declared you perfectA flaw was never a flaw because it was yoursI turned all of the red flags into red rosesAnd I continued to gift myself bouquets even though you knew you were giving me heartbreakI carried [...]

I Got You

What I knew was dismantledMy home was taken from meI am in a better place I knowBut it does not feel like itMy body still has to get used to feeling safeAnd it is very safeBut my body is on alertHow do I calm it down?"I got you" I keep saying to itBut my nervous [...]

???

Did magic stand in front of you and tell you to stop believing? Did your words ever decide to bind your mouth shut? Has the sun ever had a tantrum and threaten it would never rise? Have the stars hidden from you at night? Have you ever eaten a mazapan that doesn't break? Then why [...]