I didn't even get a chance to show him how much he meant to meI fantasized about himI loved how much we laughedI smiled every time we listened to music togetherI told him what I don't tell othersAnd he said so himself, that he never talks about the deep shit with no one elseAnd we [...]
Category: Poetry
Loss
I've felt lossBut never like this Angelica Flores
Rest
Resting is different than being stagnantI don't know if my body knows the differenceIt was never allowed to restAnd that became the way I navigated successOne day on a bed was considered lazinessAnd my nervous system would go into a state of frenzyBut not working does not equal lazyDoes not equal good for nothingDoes not [...]
I Held My Heart In My Hand
The other day I held my heart in my hand And I raised it For all of you to see The reactions varied Some threw love Others threw shade One person even spit at it But not enough to cause damage Overall my heart recieved an applause, human connection, sisterhood, and solidarity The energy it [...]
Pedestal
I put you on a pedestalYou gave me the basics but because I've never had it before, I declared you perfectA flaw was never a flaw because it was yoursI turned all of the red flags into red rosesAnd I continued to gift myself bouquets even though you knew you were giving me heartbreakI carried [...]
I Got You
What I knew was dismantledMy home was taken from meI am in a better place I knowBut it does not feel like itMy body still has to get used to feeling safeAnd it is very safeBut my body is on alertHow do I calm it down?"I got you" I keep saying to itBut my nervous [...]
???
Did magic stand in front of you and tell you to stop believing? Did your words ever decide to bind your mouth shut? Has the sun ever had a tantrum and threaten it would never rise? Have the stars hidden from you at night? Have you ever eaten a mazapan that doesn't break? Then why [...]
RIP Carmen Salinas – Mexican Actress and Icon
I remember you praying to la Virgencita on your kneesYou were always worried about someone and I know it was just a novela and you were a character but you were also my grandma and my Tia's from Mexicali who were always worried about someone, who were always praying for someone because they love so [...]
I Dipped Myself In Love
I dipped myself in love And I came out glistening I smiled wide and moved my body Every movement had a purpose I walked straight and tall A confidence consumed my body Even what I hated about myself Recieved compliments from my very own lips I held myself for a while and said a little [...]
I Made Peace With My Consequences Today
I made peace with my consequences today They looked at me in disbelief Wondering why my reaction did not consist of frustration or fury I bowed my head and said "I get it. You are just doing your job." I fucked up I made mistakes Now it's time to let you in So that I [...]
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