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Monterey, CA

I went for a walk this morning but I had to come back because there is currently a Tsunami warning and visitors were advised to leave the beach. The water was higher than usual and the waves seemed a bit angry but the view was beautiful! Enjoy! Lovers Point Thank you for following my blog. [...]

Break

I know I said I was going to take a break from posting but not writing and not posting right away doesn't feel right. I feel like I can't just let my poems sit there. I feel like I NEED to share them with you. I also realized I'm not good at sitting with my [...]

Toxicity

I've had an interesting relationship with toxicity I've othered it as if it was not a part of me As if what I've experienced had nothing to do with me and everything to do with them As if I didn't have a role to play in my suffering Angelica Flores

Advocate

I spoke up in a gloomy roomAnd ears listenedEmpathy entered And all was forgivenMy issues were addressed one by oneI was an advocate for myself for onceI wrote everything that was discussedAnd I left knowing I won't ever let it get this far Angelica Flores

Skin

It's as if I could finally get out of this skin I wore that wasn't mine I started peeling away slowly The insecurities went first Then the hurt And after it the guilt I continued to peel away at much more I will not deny that it stung But it's hard to get rid of [...]

Secrets

We all have secrets Watch me throw mine all on the table Go ahead Pick one up and try to use it as a weapon against me I am the only one that has power over it Now sit and watch me make magic out if it Now watch me make a fool out of [...]

Step Away

I didn't even get a chance to show him how much he meant to meI fantasized about himI loved how much we laughedI smiled every time we listened to music togetherI told him what I don't tell othersAnd he said so himself, that he never talks about the deep shit with no one elseAnd we [...]

Rest

Resting is different than being stagnantI don't know if my body knows the differenceIt was never allowed to restAnd that became the way I navigated successOne day on a bed was considered lazinessAnd my nervous system would go into a state of frenzyBut not working does not equal lazyDoes not equal good for nothingDoes not [...]

Pedestal

I put you on a pedestalYou gave me the basics but because I've never had it before, I declared you perfectA flaw was never a flaw because it was yoursI turned all of the red flags into red rosesAnd I continued to gift myself bouquets even though you knew you were giving me heartbreakI carried [...]

I Got You

What I knew was dismantledMy home was taken from meI am in a better place I knowBut it does not feel like itMy body still has to get used to feeling safeAnd it is very safeBut my body is on alertHow do I calm it down?"I got you" I keep saying to itBut my nervous [...]

???

Did magic stand in front of you and tell you to stop believing? Did your words ever decide to bind your mouth shut? Has the sun ever had a tantrum and threaten it would never rise? Have the stars hidden from you at night? Have you ever eaten a mazapan that doesn't break? Then why [...]

In A Bar

I went to two bars tonight. The plan was to go to the farmers market only but my friend and I ended up in a bar that was flooded with Christmas decorations. I felt like I was in a Hallmark movie...you know when the girl or the guy come back to their hometown and fall [...]

US

I can't stop thinking about you About us There is no us the way I want there to be an us But there is a you and me discussing God I don't think you understand how special that is to me Because if God is in between you and me Then our friendship will thrive [...]

I Am A Poet

I am a poet I die on the inside while everyone is watching I do not hide behind a smile I cannot hide I place my pain at the beginning of my poems until the end There is never a period Because I will never stop writing And when my body leaves the earth My [...]

Forgive Yourself

Forgive yourself Some of the stories you told yourself about who you are, are not true So you've made mistakes And you've paid for them Doesn't make sense to drown in them If you know how to swim You've given more power to your mind than your heart Your heart is hurting And you won't [...]

It’s Up To You

In the midst of chaos and uncertainty Hope survives In the midst of panic and fear Kindness survives In the midst of racism Love survives In the midst of a pandemic Solidarity survives The only way hope, kindness, love, and solidarity will continue to survive Depends on how you behave Angelica Flores

Happy Saturday

Happy Saturday y'all! For those of you that recently started reading my poetry and following my blog, welcome! I hope that you decide to stay subscribed and that you enjoy all of the poetry I will be sharing with you! For those of you that have been following me for a while now, please know [...]

Unique

I opened myself up so you can see what I am made of  You stood there confused but also amused  You haven't met a person quite like me And I know this because you say it And I believe you because I haven't met anyone like me either But the question isn't how unique I [...]

Too Much

I get anxious when there is silence because I know that my heart will shriek at the tops of its lungs, angry that I never let it speak, desperate to talk to me about everything we are going through. My heart… I named her Too Much. Well Too Much will remind me that I am [...]

Love

My inner child is looking for love And my adult logic wants to calm her down As if what this little one wants doesn't exist The child cries out for love Arms stretched But I cannot reach out and hug her I can't give her what I have not found Angelica Flores

Life

Life is passing me by  Decisions Decisions  Make one already  There is a lot of moving parts  I move in different directions  And then I come back to the same place  I couldn’t decide  Trust  Trust  Trust  I’m scared  Can I trust that I can take care of myself  I risked a lot and I [...]

The Lowest Point

I wrote this in December of 2020 : I don’t want to look back anymore. Unfortunately, the future is fogged with uncertainty and possibility of death. I am terrified and I must learn to live in this body full of pain and dread. What do I have left? The present. In the present, tears run [...]

Losing

I'm losing what I've wantedOut of fear that I don't deserve itAll I need to do is show up as myselfAnd declare that it's what I wantJust say the wordsAnd it's all mineI have one foot in the door and one foot outDo I listen to my heart?Or do I give my fears the benefit [...]

Safe

There's just something Something about… That makes me feel safe  I bury my head on… Chest  And I stay there for a few seconds  I never wanted someone else or others to be my safety  I think that is an unfair expectation  But the world scared me partially stuck and almost numb Unable to make [...]

Speak Up

When you've been silenced for so longIt's easy to believe that you don't have a voiceThat you're not strong enough to speak in rooms that have people that continue to erase youTake up spaceThere's enough room in the world for youSpeak even when your voice shakes and cracksEven when you feel like you may not [...]

The Professor

I used to sit in coffee shops and write. I loved smelling the coffee and hearing the sound of clinking plates as the baristas served pastries to the sitting customers. I was social back then and I would make conversation with anyone sitting near my table. This happened often and I always sat there, amazed [...]

ALIVE

I wrote the following in December 2020 : I will not write about my past. I tried and tried but my tears kept smudging the pages and my pen refused to keep going. It refused to continue in such chaos. I sat there for hours looking at the ruined paper wishing my stories would come [...]

Im Not Here To…

I'm not here to please youI'm not here to heal youYou cannot treat my skin like your blanketYou cannot throw it off of you when you've received all of the warmth that you needMy warmth and my body are mine and mine onlyIf I invite you to share space with meThat is because I expect [...]

Porch Adventures

I used to walk to the liquor store for Hot Cheetos (Orlandos or Red Sea) and a soda and sit on the porch. I have amazing memories on this porch. I used to sit with my almost but never going to be boyfriend's here late at night and my grandma and grandpa would peek through [...]

Older

When my hair starts looking like snow I want my smile to look like sunshine I want my eyes to have hope I want laughter to take over After my body has rested I want silence to be welcomed And the good memories to stomp on the bad ones I want salsa playing in the [...]